I wasn't going to write about this, but have decided I will as I told myself I would be as open and honest about Ushers as I can be.
And now I've decided to write about it I have to do so now so I don't lose the nerve/bottle at a later date!
Yesterday morning I was waiting for a bus to get to work. The sun was really bright and despite having my sunglasses on the glare was glaring in a glary manner! Now, for those who don't have or know about Ushers, sun glare can be a right pain in the jacksie. You know those really over exposed photo's, it's a bit like that. plus my eyes water a lot when it's like that, so I have to contend with the blur that watery eyes give as well.
The bus came, the doors opened and I went to step on.
Before my foot hit the deck someone, a man, barged into me so HE could get on before me.
Because at that precise moment I was on one leg it knocked me sideways. My shoulder hit the side of the bus. I stacked and ended up on the road between the bus and the curb.
The man spun around and started shouting at me!
Apparently I should have been looking where I was going. I was taking the piss. I was making it far worst than it actually was. I was trying to make him look bad. I was a fool. I was f*cking waster. It was all my fault.
He then went and sat down.
The bus driver didn't anything other than look at me.
Behind me a group of teenagers were laughing.
No one asked me if I was ok. No one helped me up. I got up and walked away.....
I have never been so humiliated in my whole life. I have never felt so ashamed to be me. I have never felt quite as vulnerable as I did then.
So much so I didn't tell anyone at work once I got there. I didn't tell any of my family that evening.
No one wants to admit this sort of thing happens to them. But I am going to admit to it, because it takes a fair bit of bottle to do so, and I reckon I got that bottle!!